Wednesday, July 07, 2010
I can start over at any time. Is this an excuse to do badly or a motivational tool to stay on track. Well today it is motivation for me. This past weekend I actualy walked several times, I painted, and I did without bread. My diet continues to improve but I am not loosing weight. Who cares, I feel better emotionally. I walked through the pain and did not have a single asthma attack. God is Good.
I plan to continue on this course of action and yes I expect to falter but today is always a new day so I can start over at any time. I have known this a long time but get caught up in my pitty party celebrations and forget. Fortunately I have a short term memory problem and usually forget to celebrate.
Work is going as expected, no promotion, no raise, no recognition except 180 days perfect attendance.
At least I can do that well. Maybe I need to track the rest of my life to see how well I am doing. I should love my life as much as I love my work, I suppose. Gonna talk to psychiatrist about things that have been bothering me, memory loss. Well that's another blog. I have a lot of things I need to deal with cause I'm telling you they can make you sick. It's time to get well, holistically.
I do not know if anything I write makes sense or helps anyone but healing comes from within and I feel secure in saying, this website may have saved my life. Just because we appear to have it all together does not allow for the grief we hold inside.
Hope you had a wonderful 4th, love your family and be kind to yourself as you do those around you.
Gina from Tennessee