Don't want to lose control.
Monday, July 05, 2010
Although my weight hasn't changed in the last couple weeks, my attitude has changed in the last couple of days And not for the better.
Despite friends boosting me up, I still find myself having the "what's the point" attitude. I wonder what is the point of caring if no matter what I do, I don't get results. Yesterday I felt like that and blew my calorie range. Today I am set to do fine. (meaning staying in my calorie range) But, I am heading over to a friends BBQ for dinner. I want to stick to my eating plan. But, I feel that bad attitude creeping back in. The one that says..."Have that dessert. It doesn't matter anyway. You didn't lose anything when you did all the right things. So, who cares."
I am fighting that voice right now, as I head out to the BBQ. But, I want to know that my choices do matter. I want to know that if I stay in my calorie range it will be worth it and not just a pain to get through. I can get through anything if I know it is worth it.
But, I am not sure I KNOW that what I am doing will work, when it hasn't so far.