Monday, July 05, 2010
Even though my weight tracker has stayed stuck for many months, my actual weight has moved: it's just that it's gone up and down, and down and up, and has never gone below the tracker weight. So decided to leave it as is, until I see a real change at some point.
And I am seeing changes, but not anything that I can physically track. My food choices are coming along, slowly but surely. Almost never indulge in emotional eating anymore, which to me is a miracle in itself. Even if I never lose another pound, I'd consider my journey a success just for that! Food is no longer my best friend one day, my enemy the next. It is just...food. No more, no less. And the more nourishing choices I can make, the better for me and for my body and my mind.
With the better food choices have come more emotional stability (not as many drastic highs and lows), more energy (I need fewer naps, even if I haven't given them up completely!), and less illness (I haven't been sick since my last bout with bronchitis back in February). Of course, some of this may be because of the arrival of summer, with its higher temperatures, and bluer sky, but I am convinced my better treatment of my body is paying off. That's my story, and I'm sticking to it!!
As for exercise, while there always seems to be some excuse or another why I can't do something (recently a very sore shoulder is hindering my rediscovered love of swimming), I have to remind myself that I can always do SOMETHING. Most days, it's been walking...the great weather, and the sea always give a kick to my mood, which is always welcome. And on the occasional day when I need to give the knees a break, a good round of stretching feels wonderful!
So until I feel a difference, I'm staying off the scale. I'll know when things have started heading downward by my clothes anyway, and I'm not going to derail my very real progress by becoming depressed about the number on the scale.
Feeling good is hard to measure on a tracker, but is so worth it!