Sunday, July 04, 2010
Wow! I don't even know where to begin!
In April my mother became ill for real this time, so we thought once again!
She does have cancer in her right kidney that has to be removed, but she has so many other health issues that the doctors are afraid to do surgery. They also, don't want to do chemo or radiation. Through all of this she needing attention and not getting our every waking moment started calling relatives and telling them she was going to die in 1 to 3 months. Then told them even sooner. This was after she over medicated herself for attention! She spent several days in the hospital and family from all over came to see her! Exactly what she wanted!
Now several weeks later the end of June, my dad has an episode that ends him up in the hospital. Only to find out that he has had a mini stroke and also, has a blockage in his left artery in his neck. 5 days later he has another episode with his blood pressure and chest pains so I had to take him to the VA hospital an hour and a half away. Well after 9 hours in the ER they kept him over night and I had to go back the next day and get him. All the while my mother has been calling everyone she knows to tell them how mean I am by not taking her with me!! AARRRRRGGGGGG!
"I had NO idea that watching your parents age and suffer with medical issues of their own would hurt so much! I have tried to make good food choices but I still haven't kept up with my exercising like I had been! I am going to get that consistency award again if it kills me! Now I have to figure out how to be a little more creative in the exercise and not give in to myself b/c I had a very busy day!
What and how do you do it all when you are spending so much time at different hospitals and different waiting rooms waiting for different tests to come back just to tell you that your parents aren't getting any younger!
Oh then there are the talks that they each have with you about what to do when they die and how to handle what they want you to handle w/o making the whole rest of the family mad at you!! Oh and tell yourself not to let stress eat you or you to eat what is in front of you while the stress is causing you to give in! Oh man, what new lessons I am learning. Now how to learn how to make better choices!
Sorry for the rambling hoping that this will help me not to eat the whole world in front of me!