Saturday, July 03, 2010
This morning, I'm putting on my jeans (which is brand new for me to even wear pants) and I realized that I was standing on one leg and pulling on the other pant leg!!! Some of you reading this blog will know what a huge deal this is--you've had the same experience of always having to be seated when putting on leggings, sweat pants, jeans. etc. When I started Spark I was too heavy and too physically weak to stand on one leg. Now, when I'm on the phone, I stand up and start doing leg raises to one side. Which has obviously paid off.
On Canada Day I tried out a friend's trampoline. Not very successfully-was too scared to bounce high because I didn't know the weight rating for the trampoline and, after all, I DO weight 284 pounds! But I did some jumps AND I had no problem climbing in and out. My husband pointed out that I might have been able to climb in preSpark, but I probably wouldn't have been able to stand up in it and I would have had a really hard time getting out.
Even getting into my friend's monster truck has become easy. I used to hate it when he'd come over in his Hummer, because climbing up into it was such a big production. And now I feel as if I hope into it.
It is kind of funny, because I know that most people are horrified at the notion of weighing 284 pounds, instead of finding it a joy! Bit by bit, I find new activities I can do, notice tiny milestones of health. Last night I noticed that my ankles are looking like, well, ankles! They used to look like puffy mushrooms.
The plateau of June taught me to accept that the scale won't always move, to accept that I will feel unmotivated or as if I am not doing enough, but also that constant repetition of the Spark changes (and recording my food, no matter what!) will show up in improved health. Eventually, the scale starts moving again, but it is only one part of the measurement of creating a healthy body.