Friday, July 02, 2010
So I read my last blog entry and realized I had wrote that I would check in the next day and well this is a week later... sigh. I took an unintentional break from sparkpeople and definitely paid for it. I gained 3 pounds according to my scale and went on a binge of sorts. Everything from gummi bears to frosted animal cookies to heaping plates of mexican food.... I really dont know what triggered my mental breakdown. I just felt a rush of anxiety all of a sudden and couldnt say no to food for a week straight. Also, my fingernails have been chewed down so i can definitely tell that I've been stressed out.
I dont really know what I have been stressed out about. I've been feeling financially strapped but thats nothing new..
Living paycheck to paycheck... same old same old.
I did feel guilty because I missed my sister's benefit event that she put together. But I had to work and there was no way I would have made it on that little sleep.
I also felt guilty because I told my sister I would have her and her boyfriend over before her boyfriend left for Switzerland but that didnt happen, mostly due to HER busy schedule.
So I guess maybe it was a combination of all these things that caused me to crumble.
But I'm back. And thats what really matters. Not giving up. Two steps forward, one step back. At least Im making progress, albeit very slowly.
The apartment complex fitness center finally is done with its remodel and they made it 24 hour. So thats pretty cool. I will start going in the mornings when I get off work.
Oh, and Toy Story 3 was a good movie. I liked it. The theater was uncomfortable as hell though. Not worth the 10.50 to sit in those horrible seats. Next time were going to Cinetopia. Regal Cinemas kind of sucks big time.
Nice plush reclining leather seats with foot rests... and only 1.00 more than Regal...
Anyhoo, wish me luck on getting back on track - Jenny