Wednesday, June 30, 2010
I have maintained for quite a while but it seems that the weight creep has caught up on me. I have put back on 15 pounds in the past 6 months! THERE, I said it loud and clear - no hiding, no denial.
Thou I still watch what I eat and am no way close to being the old person was, my loosey goosey way of keeping track has bit me in the bootie. So, as the true fighter I have become, I am back to the grind of doing what I know works. Track my food, track my workouts and keep it front and center in my world to stay on track. The 172.6 I put in today isn't my low of the week, but it is what it is when is was - 10 minutes ago that is what the dang scale said. It was 167 last time and I will bet there is some bodily reason or the big jump and it will go back down BUT, it seems the ups and downs are scooching up on me and I am going to fix this he way I have learned how.
I have been working out and for the past two weeks I have honored myself by bringing back the run after my cardio instead of strength. I do better with more cardio and if I want to have more freedom with food then I have to do more working out. Period. I have not stopped working out since Feb 2008, I have remained strong but at times my effort was short. I have been very present with my effort levels and workouts over the past couple of weeks and know that this is my salvation, so to speak.
So, I have great event in August that I will be on track for my clothes fitting well and lose again but I am going to shoot for getting back to my goal as well as being closer for the work event. I am going to be running at 5.5 a full mile by then as well.
I have so done this before and know I can do it again and I have not let it slip back to the 245+ size I was. I am different now and learning how "normal size" people ebb and flow with their weight has been an eye opener. I have NO experience with maintaining I only knew getting bigger. So, back to the grind and back to using the tools that SP offers to keep me reaching towards my goals.
So, good work out tonight and track my food ad let the system work once again.
I am embarrassed and feel at times like I am huge again BUT THIS IS THE TEST - what will I CHOOSE to do with this.
I CHOOSE TO BE IN CONTROL AND BE A GOOD STEWARD OF MY OWN BODY! period
upward and onward----- nice to be home again....