Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Meant to blog last Friday night, over the weekend, yesterday...but it never happened. Can't believe it's been a week already! Wish I HAD written on one of the other days, because - quite frankly - my mood sucks tonight! Just feeling BLAH. It'll pass, I suppose. Didn't eat great today. Pretty sure that didn't help matters. Didn't get done what I wanted to get accomplished either. That's strike two. But I DO have my four-legged friends playing in the room with me tonight, so that's a plus.
Yesterday I went to see PT; he was pleased with my progress so far. Was there a long time & he gave me new exercises. Was definitely feeling the "progress" today. He worked me hard yesterday. Tomorrow I'm doing some painting for my parents. I'm sure I'll enjoy it, but my crappy attitude is telling me otherwise tonight. BLAH. Hate this mood. Tempted to just go to bed, but it's too early for that. I'd just lay up there and stress out over everything. Not a good solution.
On a GOOD note:
I AM keeping up with my blog. Okay, maybe a few good notes:
As I mentioned above, PT is paying off AND I got through a HUGE amount of clutter on Friday. Have been nagging the kids to keep their stuff picked up since then. (Don't want to back-pedal on this decluttering mission!)
Scale says I gained 1/2 a pound. I refuse to enter my weight until it goes back down. Good thing I didn't have lofty goals. I usually do good for about 3 weeks - then sabotage myself, gain weight, call myself a failure, quit trying. Not this time. I started sparking again in mid-May 2010. Tomorrow will be July 1st. Definitely made it past that 3-week mark. I am almost DOWN to where I was when I sighed up for SP almost a year ago. Yep, hit my all-time high earlier this year. I THOUGHT I had signed up for SP in 2007 or 2008, but couldn't figure out what my log-in & PW might have been, so gave up. Would like to have been able to look back and see what I weighed back then. I guess maybe it's better to leave the past in the past anyway.
My short-term goals (mentioned in my first blog) are not weight related. I think I'm going to post them on my main SparkPage after I finish typing this. My long-term goal is weight related...and it's VERY long term. This time I will not sabotage myself. I have until DECEMBER 2011 to reach my goal. I'm trying to make healthier choices & trying to be more active. It takes time to change old habits. It's one day at a time, one choice at a time. If I make a poor choice today, it doesn't mean I have to keep making the same choice every day for the rest of my life. Tomorrow is a new day, a new opportunity. I'm not going to be an over-the-top RAH-RAH cheering section, but I'm not going to be Miss DoomAndGloom either. I'm just going to be me, just me.