Tuesday, June 29, 2010
I just found out that settlement for the (as) very sort sale of my and my 'Y's (almost a Ex but not quite yet) marriage home is delayed for another month or two. I really want to get this over and done.
We bought the really cute little cottage with all the love, dreams, and ambitions in the world and spent / threw away loads of time and money to make it our home; but it was all for naught.
Now all is soured. The house is in veritable ruins, as is our marriage. I've done everything I could to save both and HE has done everything he could and more to save the house. He's living there and I moved away and have an apartment about a mile away. At present, house is a sad white elephant that's a constant reminder of what might have been. . . it breaks my heart all over again just to think about it. Of course the past cannot be reversed BUT, no matter how I try not to, I way too often revisit like a tongue to a sore tooth.
It's easy to say What Will Be Will Be, but it's NOT SO EASY to live it.