Tuesday, June 29, 2010
It's been almost 6 weeks now that i've been back on track. It sure doesn't feel like it's been that long since it seems like every other day or so I have a mental struggle to continue on. To be honest I am not sure where the motivation is coming from, but it's flowing. I think maybe it's the determination this time, to not stop or quit. I am finally starting to see some results, my clothes fit better, I feel better, I'm happier. That is not to say I don't have my days where the world gets me down or my body feels too tired to run or workout. It's my mind however that pushes me forward. I actually want to do this for me. I am excited to see my body transform and shape. I am finally starting to notice that I am not as winded or tired after my workouts. I am finally not as sore or achy as I was before, I think my body and mind are finally starting to "Get it". I know I still have a few more pounds to go before I hit my goal weight, but I think it's the mental changes that have made such a huge difference. About 6 weeks or so I had NO desire to workout, I didn't care, I didn't want too, it didn't matter. I couldn't figure out why my attitude was so negative and why I just didn't care. Then I started to notice my clothes being too tight and my mood being so bad. I was tired and crabby and that is not who I wanted to be. I told myself that it takes 21 days to start a habit.. so that was my first goal, 21 days of eating good and working out. Each day I just kept telling myself you just gotta get to day 21, one day at a time. Finally I got to that day and then it clicked, I was happier, I had more energy and I liked what I was seeing. Finally I started to see the importance and benefits of working out. Finally I started to see I was doing all that work for ME. Finally I was seeing how much it helped me with my life and my future... now finally, I am back on track!