Monday, June 28, 2010
For the last two months I have been costing by with my program. I have not walked in 8 weeks or done any strength training. I do lots of work for my cardio but that is it. I have let my eating plan slip and have been having things I had been avoiding. Last night I was looking at photos of me sanding the wood floor in our house. One was taken my dear wife of my passed out in my computer chair after 12 hours of fighting a 125lb drum sander. I looked at myself and realized Iím still over wait. I have been stuck by me own doing at 348 for two months. I should be 335 by now. But I have too many regrets in my life to let this one go any further. Today Iím making my come back. I just got back from a walk I donít think it was far but it was a good 45min walk. Iím still strong I know I have lost inches due mainly to all the other cardio I have been doing. I mean after all this is the first time my ankles have touched each other in years LOL. So I know changes have been made but I am unwilling to cost by. To me it reflects too much of my life and I refuse to be stag net. To many things in life I just donít want to miss. I want to run with my kids and play in the grass at the park without warring about how I am going to get up. I want to shop in the menís department at a retail store not big and tall. I want to sit in an airplane seat and not touch the sides of the arm rests. I want to feel good about myself and my new life. I am not getting down on myself I am reminding me of what I want. To keep the dream alive and stay focused on my goal. I found a photo of me at 21 in Scotland I have been looking for this one photo for a long time. It is who I want to be again. Not just on the outside but inside to. I will have it scanned once my house has been put back together from our resent remodel and you will see what I am talking about. So today I am making my come back. I will put my energy into my program, support my friends on sparks and be true to myself. After all there is a lot of work left to do.