Friday, June 25, 2010
Had the day off, it's a good thing. I went outside twice and couldn't breath. I think my lungs are getting worse. I have no breathing capacity in this weather, 99 with humidity. Tennessee is ugly now. I am so furtunate to have a good husband.. He really takes good care of me.
I see myself as a skinny person in a fat girls body. I have to laugh at myself sometimes. Being upset takes too much energy and I don't have any to spare. I don't want my kids to see me feeling like this. They are already stressed with the economy.
I can't believe my grandson will be here soon. I will let you all know, hopefully with a pic if I can find the camera my lovely has lost.
I want to talk about issues now. We all have issues and we all handle them differently. I think finding a healthy way of dealing with issues is the most difficult part. I tend to look for the quickest of easiest way to get past something but recently I had to actually make a change in order to deal with this.
I work with psychiatric patients and I have this MR girl who wears me out. She is demanding, intrusive, attention seeking. She has hurt several people and requires a firm hand. I reached the end o my rope with her and lost my temper. It is not appropriate. I had to look within to make sure this didn't happen again. The process was positive. I have dealt with her more effectively this week, no restraints and no temper flairs. YEH me.
This tells me I can do this weight thing, I just have to figure out what works for me and do it. The support has blown me away. SP are special people. Think I'll stick around.