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The Warrior Dash

Friday, June 25, 2010

I really don't want to write much about this, because I honestly hated every second of it. Everyone in my group had SO MUCH FUN, and I feel like a total Debbie Downer for even saying that I hated it, but it's the truth. I felt HORRIBLE about myself. After losing almost 100 pounds, I think I thought that I could do pretty much anything. However, that was not the case.

The race was 3.51 miles with 12 obstacles (to name a few: a cargo net climb, crawling through tunnels, running through muddy water, jumping over fire, crawling through mud under barbed wire, etc). I've done 4 mile runs before, so I wasn't worried about the running. The obstacle I fear most was the cargo net climb, but ironically that turned out to be my favorite. I was NOT expecting the fire jump to be so difficult, however! My shoes were about 10 pounds each (CAKED with mud) and I was supposed to take a running start and leap over two lines of fire that was TALL and HOT. I could feel the heat from a few large steps away. I panicked and thought, "There is no way I can do this!" My husband made the leap. I could not. I walked around it, shamefully. I was horribly embarrassed, but I could just picture taking a nosedive into the fire. Running through mud with shoes that weigh 10 pounds each was extremely difficult, and I didn't want to even attempt the fire jump. I feel like such a failure for that! However, I crawled through the mud pit and crossed the finish line.

The mud pit wasn't the only reason I hated the race. The entire race was ankle-deep mud, and it made me feel really sluggish and slow... which is EXACTLY how I felt when I was 253 pounds. Sluggish, slow, exhausted, and getting passed by people in top physical shape. I felt like crying... and I did, later. It just made me feel like total sh*t about myself, and that wasn't worth it to me. For a "normal" person, this race would be lots of fun! All my friends had fun! But for someone who just lost 99 pounds, it made me think "What was the point of losing all this weight?! I'm the same damn person I was before."

The mud pit--this was actually a little fun. I got to the top and fell all the way back down!

My husband jumping over the infamous fire... and you can see me in the background lingering, trying to psych myself up for it.

My husband and I after the race:

My husband and I crawling through the mud pit:

With a couple of our friends after cleaning up a little:
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    You did great in just finishing. I am going to the NE one on June 25th of this year.
    2325 days ago
    I am signed up (with a good size group) in August. I am so sad that you had a bad time. Congrats for your weight loss and finishing!!!
    2407 days ago
    I am signed up for the Warrior Dash in May. I have been hitting the gym hard every day. It has inspired me to incorporate strength training into my program. And it has inspired me to pick up my running. And it has gotten me my MOJO back. I can't wait. I hope I am able to finish the race!! I am sorry you didn't enjoy it as much as some of the others. You are amazing for even attempting it. Extraordinary for accomplishing it. You are a motivation to so MANY. I'm in awe of all you've accomplished. Thanks for sharing your experience. It may help me to keep pushing if after I get there I begin to Hate it as well. :)
    2408 days ago
    I was brought to your blog via your latest video post, and now I see this! :) I want to do a Warrior Dash SO bad, and I think there's one in my area this summer. This looks so awesome! Even if you hated it, it's still an accomplishment to be proud of. It looks like it's something you love to hate!
    2419 days ago
  • GEMINIS_25
    I read your blog months back. I felt inspired. I wanted some motivation and so I signed up for the Northeast Warrior Dash.

    UGH!!! I wasn't able to stay motivated and didn't do nearly enough running/walking/anything-ing enough. But I had my friend signed up and (even if I hadn't) I wouldn't have backed out. I went.

    I didn't do great. BUT I never stopped. I kept trucking on.....even when I was last.....even when I wasn't....even as the next wave people started to run passed me.....even when I twisted my ankle (and then the other one).....I never stopped.

    I definitely wish I'd had prepared and done better. BUT that said I didn't come in last (after all), I'm proud of myself for not stopping, I went through all the obstacles.....and of course was so glad to finish. In the end I too was a Warrior Dash Finisher! And while everyone else celebrated.....I also felt I was part of this shared experience.

    I really wanted to let you know that you inspired me to do this crazy event and (although I wish I had a more inspiring tale) I happy that I followed through and can claim warrior status today.
    2554 days ago
    My two daughters, son-in-law and two of their friends did this also. My 28 year old who was an overweight teen but started running in high school and is now 132 pounds also had problems with the fire pit. She stood for 5 minutes until she found a bit of fire she could just step over because she was so scared. If there had been an option to walk around, you bet she would have done it. You have nothing to feel bad about. You are strong, healthy and have a loving family. Way to go!!!
    2589 days ago
    You are a machine! I looked at this one and thought, "Hmmm..." You rock!
    2599 days ago
    Oh Boy,, I am doing the Warrior Dash also, MIne is in Sept and a bunch of us girls are going and stating the night afterwards as it is a bit of a ride . I so Hope I have a better experience. I do commend you for finishing since you were not having fun . That is always my goal is to finish and have fun .Sometimes the fun does not come untill after I am all done with the event. But once I finish I am happy ... wish me Luck

    Future Warrior

    2611 days ago
  • KITTYF54
    Congratulations for finishing the race even when you felt so down. Remember, those 20 pounds of mud wash off, you're WAY ahead of the game.
    2622 days ago
    You've come a long way! I understand why you hated it; who likes to be reminded of where we started? But you didn't quit. That is amazing. And you're still standing; that course didn't defeat you. That means you are a warrior. WTG!
    2624 days ago
    who could blame you for not wanting to jump across FIRE?! If someone said to me, "hey, how would you like to run nearly 4 miles with mud all over you and jump through fire today?" I would probably start to cry just thinking about it haha. YOU ARE AWESOME for even attempting this challenge, let alone completing it. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2624 days ago
    I can't believe you even attempted this! I would never be able to do this, even in top physical's just not my cup of tea. Don't feel bad for not enjoying it, this doesn't seem like it's for everyone.... emoticon
    2624 days ago
  • GEMINIS_25
    Oh boy!! I know that it's difficult to not see the fruits of your labor......but in my eyes just having the courage, persistence, and stamina to get through this is pretty amazing!!!

    Do you remember not being able to get through 1 mile of jogging?? Maybe you don't. Perhaps you never had trouble with this. But just reading 4 miles.....made me think "Oh my, I'm not sure I could even get trough halfway around the track without wanting to, or even just, stopping right now........certainly not with people looking. I imagine that you've made leaps and bounds from where you started.....and got through many hurdles along the way. Be proud of your accomplishments to date.....and proud of yourself especially when you get through the things that most challenge you!!

    2626 days ago
    I give you credit for finishing. My husband was at that race this year too and I was thinking it would be fun to do it next year after some weight loss. You should be proud of yourself...huge accomplishment!! I love your before and after pics. Congrats on the weight loss. Mo. emoticon
    2627 days ago
    I wanted to try this race, but it is a bit of a drive to get to the one in NY. Congrats on finishing, I know it couldn't have been easy!
    2628 days ago
    This looks absolutely awesome! Congrats on finishing!
    2628 days ago
    oh wow, we had thought about doing this - and now I'm glad I didn't! I was worried about the water stuff.. But you finished and that's frikkin awesome!
    2629 days ago
  • UNICORN212
    You did an awesome job, even without the fire pit! I don't know very many people that could have completed that race - I certainly could not have done it! Congrats on the 99 pounds!
    2638 days ago
  • KEAMOM1510
    You are such an inspiration to me! Thank you for sharing your story. I'm so sorry you felt so weighted down but isn't it wonderful to know you could just wash off the weight?

    I had to add you as a friend because your pushing me forward!

    2638 days ago
    that was emoticon ,you are emoticon try not to think too much about the fire jump you didn´t manage to do or you might blow it up out of all proportion.instead concentrate on all you did ran nearly 4 miles you went through and achieved 11 other obsticles,how many other people can say that.i can´t you have lost nearly proud of what you have achieved so far,don´t think it is not worth it as you feel your are the same person,you are not, would you when you were at your heaviest even have attempted to do the warrior dash?i think thankful for where you are at the moment ,be proud of all you have achieved and all that you still have and will to achieve.remember you are one emoticon lady as well as an inspiration to the rest of are woman i want to hear you roar.
    2638 days ago
    Who wouldn't feel sluggish running through MUD?? I can understand your frustration haha
    2639 days ago
    OMgosh what an adventurous spirit you have for giving this a go!!! Are you kidding me? Look at how far you have come. I am amazed at all you have achieved. Good for you on taking a honest look at your feelings, but don't let them take over. YOU are in control now, and You've GOT THIS THING. WOOT!!! WOOT!!! Cool memory to share with your husband fun people you! emoticon
    2639 days ago
    WOW! I am impressed with your courage to try this in the first place and for staying the course. Congratulations for completing the race!!
    2641 days ago
    You did an amazing job!! So you walked around the fire - you completed something many others cannot do!! You rocked it girl!!!
    2641 days ago

    I only have about 15 pounds to lose and most people would probably consider me normal sized. Even so, athletic events or competitions make me feel totally inadequate. Now that I am an adult, I don't ever opt to step out of my comfort zone and participate in them. I do exercise but do not like team or group type settings.

    So....what I think is fabulous is that you are living your life in a dynamic way - stepping out of your comfort zone and trying new challenges. Even though you didn't enjoy the race, just being there and pushing your limits is a HUGE accomplishment.

    Celebrate your inner warrior. Even though you encounter your "old familiar failure feelings" from time to time, you are clearly not the same person anymore.

    PS I now subscribe to your blog. :)
    2642 days ago
    Wow, Katie, simply amazing! Thank you again for inspiring me first thing in the morning!! Be proud of yourself (as I'm sure you are). I'm sorry this race wasn't all that you expected it to be but I'm guessing it brought out some feelings to remind you of your accomplishments, how you never want to be unhealthy again, etc. etc. I've only been reading about you for 2 short days and I'm in awe and ready to conquer as you have. Kudos to you, girl!
    2643 days ago
    All I'm going to say is that it was courageous of you to even do it! That is the WOW factor in itself.
    2643 days ago
    So what if you didn't do the fire jump.. I don't like fire either.. and I don't like mud.. I probably would have refused the mud pit and howled like a Princess! LOL. No.. you are NOT the same person.. the same person probably would not have even attempted this in the first place!
    2643 days ago
    Aww, I am sorry you did not have a good time. But, as I am sure everyone else has commented... you did make it through! Congratulations for completing it! I bet lots of people... even people who have been thin their whole lives would have trouble jumping over fire!!
    2643 days ago
    DIGITALDURGA is right girl. You wouldn't have even finished 100 lbs ago. So you didn't do one thing, big deal, you did a lot more than the rest of us. If your feet wouldn't have been covered you would have done better. It's called Warrior Dash for a reason and you are a Warrior.

    Your a SP Motivator, when you're feeling like that just look at your old pics from 100 lbs ago and read how you have INSPIRED others (6 comments in 30 min), including myself. Love you
    2643 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/25/2010 2:31:20 PM
    That looks like a blast. Congratulations for surviving!
    2643 days ago
    Wow, what a race, definitely not for me. Being covered in mud not my style.
    But you did it. Don't beat yourself up for not jumping the fire pit, you completed the other obstacles. You definitely deserve a pat on the back.
    Be proud that you lost 100#! now you know what areas you need to work on physically, life would be boring if e was nothing to challenge us.
    Keep at it and you will achieve your goals.
    2643 days ago
    You know, you make a really good point. Other people will slog through with their shoes covered in mud and think "Wow, I'm moving really slowly because my shoes are covered with mud!" There's no sense of failure or defeat, just a statement of fact.

    I think you should be proud of yourself for what you did accomplish - running, climbing a cargo net, slogging through mud... Seriously, these are impressive healthy things to do! Here's your real point of comparison - would you have done this race at 253 pounds? Could you have?

    Either way you are absolutely allowed to have had less fun than your friends. You tried it, you did it.

    2643 days ago
    You are a ‘normal’ person .. don’t ever think different about yourself. You have made a huge accomplishment by losing 99 pounds. You are not the same person you were before as you are now smarter, fitter and happier….Way to go for all you have done, will do and are thinking about doing!! emoticon
    2643 days ago
    OMG! what a race!

    I understand that this was not a good experience for you. I think you should go outside and do something that will make you happy (but DO NOT have it a food treat hehehe), Something that you manage to do today, that you did not do when you had all the weight.

    And Read your blog, were you list how far you have come :)

    2643 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/25/2010 1:59:58 PM
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