Thursday, June 24, 2010
Well was chugging along with my weight loss and things were going great...then I got caught up. I was struggling to find my serenity, my behaviors started to creep back in and I needed to get centered again. Spoke to my sponsor and we decided that for a while I need to focus on my plan and not focus on weighing in. I've been doing the work and have been honest which is huge. I've slowly started to get that third leg of the stool back on track and I feel so much better. As someone with an eating disorder, it's imperative to stay mindful that this is not about vanity for me, it's about saving my life. The scale is not important, it's a tool, like all the others and it does not have power over me or my program.
I'm so blessed that I am abstinent today, sobriety is saving me from the hell of my eating disorder. I will continue to go to meetings, do the work, write down all the food, make calls, do the steps and reach out to others who suffer. I will take inventory and try to focus on what's next to learn and conquer...progress NOT perfection!