Tuesday, June 22, 2010
So, I lost 0.2 lbs this week. It upset me that I lost so little. Immediately and still now a day later, I can't stop obsessing about it. I don't want to do anything but stay in bed. I want to cry. I feel fat. When I look in the mirror, I see the rolls of fat on my 215.8 lb body. I want out of this negative frame of mind, yet I seem unable. My depression was bad today and I know it's the result of the weigh in. I wish I didn't obsess about things so much. It doesn't help one bit. My husband suggested I weigh myself tonight as seeing the same or lower weight might help lift this upsetting feeling. Think I'll do that and see what happens. Better idea would be to focus on the 31.8 lbs I've lost to date and celebrate my accomplishments. Gotta work on this.