The plain, FAT truth...
Sunday, June 20, 2010
I've been trying to lose this weight for over twenty years. It's come down to this. I'm 40 years old and mother to a beautiful daughter. I finally have everything I have ever wanted and just got it all in the past few years. I am very fortunate to be blessed with a terrific husband, beautiful daughter, family, and friends. I know I am blessed!
However, because of my advanced age, I don't want my daughter to be alone if something should happen to me. It's so lonely to be an only child. In addition, I know we can give her more opportunities as an only child but I feel that those opportunities are less important than having the kinship of a sibling. I've been on fertility treatments for two years and it hasn't worked. I'm not one to usually put this kind of private issue out to the public but hey, I need to be open and honest about my problem eating. I AM DESTROYING MY LAST OPPORTUNITIES TO HAVE ANOTHER CHILD! I know I'm doing it and don't understand why. I truly want another child but don't want to have to lose the weight (therefore work) to do it. I need to smarten up! Now that I've put this out there, maybe I'll be shamed into staying on track. I've tried everything else, I hope this works! I have done exceptionally well for the past week but I need to do exceptionally well for much longer than a week!