Friday, June 18, 2010
I had a big rollercoaster of a day yesterday. Our eldest daughter got caught for underage drinking and I had to go get her in the middle of the night. In the morning we had to start talking about her consequences and where to go from here. We did not want to be out to punish her (the legal system will do that) but unravel how she got to this point and what areas we can reign her in so she is less likely to get into situations like this in the future.
She melted down in the middle of talking to us and just up and left on her bike. She basically was saying she didn’t need any more rules and she was leaving to go do whatever she wanted to do. She hinted that she wasn't planning on coming home.
I let her go without a fight.
The reason I did it was because I had faith that God would keep her safe and change her heart in a way that I could not. I knew in my heart that she would change her mind and that she would come home. I did have to wait a while and I did continue to pray for her while she was away (and asked for helped there in one of my SparkGroups).
In many similar situations in the past, I would have found myself standing in front of the refrigerator, trying to numb the bad feelings that would have come from not having faith that the Lord could and would move in her heart in a more amazing way than I ever could. But yesterday was so different it was amazing. Outside the heat of the moment, I have always believed that God would bring her back around…but many times I would lose that when there was an immediate problem. However, yesterday was different and I am so grateful. Grateful that God would let me see how peaceful and good it is to dwell in his promises when trouble comes. The satisfaction that resides in my soul is a million times better than the little bit of relief that comes from stuffing my face. I believe that the more I am able to abide in this peace, the more natural it will become.
I have resolved to deal with my food and body image issues within Christ's light and with the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Yesterday was just one lesson that affirmed some things I have always known but not always walked in. God is good, all the time and He is with me in times of trouble. My daughter is His beloved child and nothing or no one can snatch her from His hand.
Food will not sustain my spirit, only my body. It is the Lord who upholds me and leads me.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7
Jesus answered, "Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life" John 4:13-14
My daughter did come home safely and ready to receive the consequences for her actions. She offered some ways to assume responsibility for her own life – in physical and spiritual arenas. We have lots of love and work to do with her still but the change I saw in her when she got home was nothing short of a miracle.