Wednesday, June 16, 2010
I need to start blogging again. It used to come so naturally but I have definitely had writer's block lately. The idea that writing accesses a different part of the brain used to happen to me because I was surprised when I used to write - I would think - oh where did that come from? Now that part of my brain that writes must be on summer vacation - zoned out on boardwalk fries and cotton candy (Deb - Grotto and Fisher's). I have been putting it off and it has become a task looming over me.
Am I right in thinking that anytime you put something off until conditions are right - ends up being put off forever? Or it becomes a sort of molehill that grows into a mountain. I know that I joined spark a couple of years ago but never jumped in - I was waiting for optimal timing when I could devote my full attention to it. Well each time that I got a spark email that I had signed up for - the more distant I felt from the possibility of jumping in. Finally this past year - while stuck at home with 40 inches of snow outside - I said to myself - Mary just try 30 minutes a day and break it into pieces. Well I was addicted in 30 minutes and still am. All I needed to do was trust in that first step.
What does that say about everything on this journey. Sometimes you have to talk yourself into just sticking that toe in and making that first small scary jump. That mountain in your mind may end up being a little speed bump that you can laugh about. Or so what if it is a mountain - you can only climb a mountain one step at a time too. And when at the summit you can look back at how far you have come and exult in your accomplishment.
Dianepbh had me thinking this week. She is training for a triathlon but she was hesitant to go into the weight room. I love the sweaty weight room but fear the timing of dance classes. We are each facing different mountains that we put off tackling. When we start out on this journey just figuring out what to eat, why we eat and how to move can be a big enough challenge. But beyond that are vistas that are left to be explored. We need to constantly be looking to move a little beyond our comfort zone, we need to be ready to stick that toe in and test the waters.
So right now I am writing a blog - and doing this was a little bigger than a speed bump but not nearly as big a hurdle that my mind had made of it. And as I climb this little hill my eyes are on yonder mountains.