When she was good she was very very good but when she was bad she was horrid...
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
So I fell off the wagon as it were last week. It was disappointing to say the least. I got sick and exercise kinda went out the window and then eating followed closely thereafter. I don't know why those two things are so intertwined but if I am not exercising I tend to not eat well either.
But by not eat well I really mean eat horribly. I seem to only do extremes. I am either eating healthy and making good choices or I am making really really bad choices. Binge eating style choices (ie- and I am ashamed to admit this- whole frozen pizzas for dinner plus ice cream, chocolate and cheese bread style choices). I don't know why I do it. It doesn't make me feel good. I wake up feeling gross, guilty and out of control which sets me up for another day of bad choices. Its a vicious cycle.
Sparkpeople has helped me to limit these sort of binges but they still happen and they leave me depressed and not progressing in my weight loss.
The worst thing is that as I am about to make the choice I think- "this is stupid and you will regret it" and then I go ahead and do it anyway.
I don't really know how to stop these from happening.