Saturday, June 12, 2010
Well, my last attempt at losing weight I did very well. I lost a total of 65 lbs! Gained most of it back...but...the positive? I am on the shedding side again. I joined Weight Watchers on February 16, 2010 with a bit of the feeling that I can do this and that nothing is going to stand in my way. Somehow, it seems easier this time. I have lost 31 lbs and with 2 more lbs I will have reached 10% lost of my starting weight this time. I feel stronger now than I did before and I realize, that will power has little to with having control over my eating. It's the knowledge and acceptance that food no longer controls my life. If I want to eat something I eat it...even if it is too much for that day. And, because I do this, food no longer controls me and I find myself rarely if ever binging. I have only "binged" two maybe three times since I started my journey again, and the last time I was able to stop myself from it getting too out of control. I am proud of myself and I know that I can do this. The proof is the barely touched cake (my fav) that is laying dormant in the freezer. And the mounds of easter candy (my second fav) that is laying stacked in the cupboard. I will succeed this time, I know it.