Saturday, June 12, 2010
Well, I learned an important lesson about myself this week. I've recently come to consider myself an "emotional eater," which is something I've probably been my entire life. However, until the past few years, I had led a pretty easy, satisfying life, so I rarely stuffed food in my mouth to fill another void. I started this go round of weight loss on Sunday (almost a week ago), and even after just 48 hours of eating right, I felt better and actually in control. Then after a doctor's visit on Wednesday where I received not dire but not great news, I became derailed. If there had been a pizza in the house, I probably could/would have eaten all of it. Thankfully, I had the kitchen stocked with healthy food and no sugary or carby stuff. But for the first time in my life, I was consciously able to see and recognize what I was doing as I searched the fridge, freezer, and cabinets for something to fill the void I was feeling. Being able to see what I was doing and to recognize that this is what I have been doing for the past couple of years (and which has led to an unhealthy weight) for the first time empowered me. I CAN control it - I just have to continue to recognize what I'm doing and find other ways to cope. Or allow myself to find comfort in a leftover piece of pizza, but then later make up for those calories by going for a walk or having a low calorie dinner. Life won't always be perfect, but that doesn't mean that I have to compromise my figure or my health.