Friday, June 11, 2010
Sometimes I feel like I've been assigned my own personal gremlin, whose sole mission in life is to make my world as complicated and drama filled as possible - UGH - between kids in crisis, court battles, unexpected moves, unemployment, and a serious struggle to avoid all this pushing me into the depression funnel, I'm exhausted inside and out.
So now the kids crisis seems to have passed, the court battle is finally over, and the move is finally done - and I feel better.
For a while there I felt like I was literally being suffocated under the weight of all the crap that was going on. I'm normally a resilient person, so finding myself beyond fed up in record quick times was a surprise - maybe it's age - seems the older you get the less bullcrap you're willing to tolerate and the less patience you have for people smearing their drama all over your life. Hmmmm...
Anyway - I feel like I fell off the wagon hard - not just on here, but with everything - and am having to force myself to refocus my attention on myself. I've spent so much time lately devoting all my mental and emotional energy on others that I have little left now for myself and it feels like I have to learn how to do it again.
Well at least now that mpst of the drama has passed I feel like I can breath again. We'll see if that translates into action or just a lot of bitchin with no action. LOL