Monday, June 07, 2010
OK....I have to admit it....I HATE WEEKENDS!!! I know I have blogged about this before, but it just stymies me every week!! UGH!! Movies, parties, get togethers, socializing. It's ALL around food!! And I go into it with the best of intentions--I plan everything out it my head. I envision myself making the right choices. Then I get to whatever it is, and my willpower goes to blazes! I have come to terms that willpower is just a fleeting sense of bravado, but geez!! And then I just get so angry at myself...just when I think I have turned the corner thinking of what I'm doing as a healthy lifestyle, not a diet, I don't know--it's almost like rebellion kicks in and I think, why can't I have this, I want it! Then the binge starts. I am really trying to get out of this vicious cycle. I know I can do it...I've already lost around 50 lbs. Been trying to lose the last 15-20 for about 6 months. I say I don't know why the pounds aren't coming off, but I know that I know. Not keeping track of food, eating stuff in excess that really should be "in moderation" foods.
I just need to get my head screwed on straight again. Maybe I've just been too obssessed with this for so long, and that is causing what I call "rebellion." I guess I'm just going to take it one day at a time and try to keep the long-term goal and benefits in mind. Definitely need to manage stress better to avoid emotional eating. Just got to open my bag of tricks and dig deep to get through this!