Monday, June 07, 2010
I didn't think that I would ever see this day... The day that I realize that I am depression free. If you have ever been depressed, then you know the feeling it causes and the chains that hold on to you. I didn't have the ability to be happy. Yesterday I saw the pictures of when I was born for the very first time in my 24 years of life. They were pictures that my birth mother had. I was born c-section. She looked so happy, yet what she was about to do was the hardest thing a mother could do... she gave me a better life through adoption. When I saw those pictures, I just cried and cried and cried. I had never heard the story of my birth, and here it was in color. The phrases that I thought were: "I'm a person; I am normal; I am loved." Those were phrases that didn't exist in my depression. I have now found a new perception on life. I have a future to look forward to instead of waiting for the day that I get to leave this earth. There are places I want to go, things I want to see, and dreams I want to achieve. This new open book in my life is helping me to reach those things. I am preparing my life for each day and each day to come. I am making new habits, I am taking things one decision at a time, and I am learning to love myself. I am so glad to share this with all of you and I hope it SPARKS hope for someone else!!! God Bless!!!