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Honest with myself...

Monday, June 07, 2010

~ HONESTY ~

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"Our lives improve only when we take
chances ~ and the first and most
difficult risk we can take is to be
honest with ourselves."

Walter Anderson

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After the initial shock and realization
that I am a compulsive overeater, it
transpired that in order to recover, I
had to get honest. This was -- and still
is -- a painful process for me, yet it
is an essential step towards my
recovery.

First I had to admit that I wasn't in
control of my life and that recovery
couldn't be achieved unaided. As with
most revelations, this was an
uncomfortable truth to behold. I was
also prompted, through honesty, to stop
blaming everyone else for my
unwillingness to help myself. I had to
find conviction in my actions and not
just emptiness in my words.

I conceded that I am not as perfect as I
would like to think. I make mistakes and
sometimes slip from the path of
recovery, but with honesty comes
acceptance that I am only human.

This disease would deceive me into
thinking that I am a failure, when in
fact it's my actions that have failed
me. Like a magician who performs
illusions for the crowd, this disease
would have me think I have committed
unforgivable sins.

Honesty is the key to my recovery; it
unlocks the chains, which have
imprisoned me for so long. It allows me
to recognize my weaknesses and turn them
into strengths. It turns simple
existence into life ~ and inner
conflicts into outward serenity.

ONE DAY AT A TIME . . .

I will be honest with myself.


I needed this today. I know that I can not recover form my food addcition unless I am honest...with myself and others. I have not been honest with either...where has that got me....rfelapse....binge eating,,,,feeling sorry for myself.....hating my body....beating myself up....today I will move back to the path of recovery and self love....Ever since I huert my ankle and tore my achillies tendon I have been nothing but abusive to myself in the guise of "making myself feel better" the food has done nothing but make me feel worse....
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RANEYDAY 6/8/2010 7:47AM

    U go girl! So true!

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WALIDGAZALA 6/7/2010 6:50AM

    I believe you are absolutely right. emoticon

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