Saturday, June 05, 2010
I have had a tendency, in the past, to run from things that scared me or made me uncomfortable. One of those fears for me is running itself. I cannot exactly identify what it is about running that scares me. Of course there's the whole self-conscious aspect of who might see me and who might see my parts do things that I typically try to hide on all accounts. However, there's more to it than that for me. I am afraid of failing. I am not crazy about the sick feeling I get when thinking about running and I am not sure how far I could actually make it. I smoked for ten years and I'm a good 80lbs. overweight. Now that I have stopped smoking, I have slowly began to try new things and enjoy new aspects of life. I also tend to stay committed to lifestyle changes and exercise programs if I have a goal.
So, here it is. My goal is to spend the sumemr training to run in my very first 5k which takes place in September. While I wouldn't say that I'm excited about taking on such a feat, I am very much determined to conquer this fear and come out a victor. While I don't know what my next goal will be after the 5k, I do know that making such a goal for September will enable me to stay committed from now until then. I have a thing about task completion and a bigger commitment to not letting fears restrict me from being who I was called to be.
So, beginning Monday I will be starting the C25K program and look forward to sharing my struggles, victories, and discoveries on this forum!