Open Book

Thursday, June 03, 2010

I guess I was thinking the weight would just mysteriously drop off on its own. Who would think I would not have any adverse health affects carrying around an extra two 50# bags of mulch on my body all day long. What WAS I thinking? If I put THE SPARK on my nightstand, the words and wisdom of the book would just somehow find their way into my head? No, No, NO! I am no longer in denial. I am no longer making excuses. I am no longer pretending to be a Sparker. I am no longer thinking MY way is the best way. I am no longer wasting time. I am DONE. I am doing it TRIED & TRUE this time. I am committed to follow SPARK to the letter.

Okay, so it took about six months for this chronic, yo-yo dieter to check out and discover all the SparkPeople website had to offer. Moreover, the NEXT six months it will all be put into ACTION. I absolutely love the support of the other Sparkers. I have not had such kind words and encouragement spoken to me in a long time. However, I love their honesty and genuineness MORE. When I see their vulnerability by posting before and after photos, I cannot help but get teary-eyed knowing how elated they must be feeling -- knowing THEY DID IT! They persevered and did the work and crossed the finish line. I clap, and shout, and get out of my chair... and that’s the key right there... GET OUT OF MY CHAIR... and GO AND DO it, too.

This IS not just another AHA moment. I NEED to be honest with myself. To show my vulnerability. With bravado, I posted two photos today. Okay, so I am no longer that darling 18-year-old at 105lbs in my red bikini. I am now an 18-year-old with 37 years experience and a morethanafew extra pounds in my XXL red cover up. And because of that, I am doing a good Austin Powers kind of job by hiding behind people and things in the photos. But I assure you, the pounds are soon-to-be GONE. ALL of them. No 35-55 pound loss and be content with that. Nope. This time I am committed to something I would never have done at 18. I am going ALL THE WAY. Soon I will be posting my OWN before and after photos - maybe even in a red bikini!

This morning, on this newfound transparency and vulnerability quest, I also posted my weight tracker for all to see. I NEED the accountability. It just has not been moving as fast as I know it should. I stared at it for awhile. I’m half-way to my first quarter of weight lost - which is a safe way of saying I have just dipped my toe in the water with that 15 pound loss. Somehow, I still felt motivated by that. So I will GO and fill up my water bottle, get my Nikes on, and get my Spark book. Time for Chapter 2. One page at a time. One sip at a time. One step at a time. One POUND at a time. What matters that it IS time.

SPARKPEOPLE: Individual commitment with group effort = team work that makes the dream work. WooHoo!!!
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    emoticon emoticon emoticon on the 15 pounds!
    2754 days ago
    You sound very committed....I'm wishing you the best of success on this journey. You know what? Once you get this committed, it is actually a lot easier journey. Sure, you may slip up, but heck! you are committed and open and honest with yourself. And that keeps you getting back on the path to where you want to go.

    I wish you the best on this journey.
    2754 days ago
    Thanks for the inspiration!

    "What matters that it IS time. "
    2754 days ago
    Great blog! So glad you have seen the light.
    Spark can help you meet your goals one step at a time.
    Just making the commitment is the 1st step to a new you.
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  • SHARON19553
    We all had to figure this out for ourselves. I was in denial for years and finally it hit home. I am 50++ and couldn't go on the way I was, so you hit a great spot and got sparked, way to go girl! Can't wait to see how you do, don't get discouraged along the way, hit a speed bump, stop, pick yourself up and dust yourself off and start right back on your plan. Life is worth fighting for! emoticon
    2754 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon tie those shoes up and hit the road to a new life. Sandy
    2754 days ago
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