What a difference a year can make!
Thursday, June 03, 2010
Well here I am. I'm a year old now! A year old in my journey to good health, a longer life an a strong body! That's right, as of May 12th it's been one year since I made the choice to drop the weight and live life to the fullest...so...what's happened in this year? Let's re-cap a bit shall we?!
Last May it hit me...what had I let myself become?! I will never forget the moment I realized my weight was totally out of control. Bryant said "Why don't you put your seat belt on" and I replied "I can't, it won't fit around me." He said, as sweetly as possible "Well, maybe you should get one of those seat belt extenders?" WHAT...NO WAY...AN EXTENDER...No way am I THAT fat...am I? Yes I was. I could not believe it had come to that point. I was embarrassed and ashamed, how could I have taken such poor care of my one and only temple? My very vessel and being...I was destroying it.
When I went to the doctor 3 days later on May 12th, 2009 I was a very tight size 26 and a whopping 285 pounds. I said "Doc, I'm fat and I need help...what can I do, HELP A SISTA OUT"! So, he told me to keep a food journal for 2 weeks and come back and see him then. So I did. And at the end of the 2 weeks he looked at my journal, smiled and said, "It's time to change, I want you to only eat 1200 calories a day and to slowly start moving, exercising, SOMETHING..JUST MOVE!" So I shook his hand and agreed that I would. So I did! I used sparkpeople.com to be my calorie counting friend, and it was the most helpful tool I could have asked for, what an amazing web site, so much support, info, just everything I needed! After about a month of just counting calories I noticed the weight started to come off! I was AMAZED to find the amount of calories I HAD been taking in prior to my watching them...you think your being healthy sometimes only to find how wrong you are! Then after a few weeks...I started moving, I started push mowing my yard once a week, have you seen my yard...IT'S HUGE...then the weight started coming off faster! In August of 2009 I found Zumba! A GODSEND! I started going to Zumba twice a week and continued to mow the lawn once a week while the months were warm. The weight just kept melting away!!! Why had I not done this YEARS ago? Why had I waited so long? I was just stuck in a state of not caring, a state of contentment...not a good place to let yourself dwell for too long.
So now, a year later, I find that I have learned more than I ever though possible on this adventure. I have loved learning about food, learning new recipes and ways to cook, watching my body develop muscles, seeing my puffy face smooth out, not feeling fat rolls touch, realizing that my pain in my back and knees and ankles was slowly going away...my entire world has started morphing! It's incredible! It's been 1 full year since I have stepped foot in a Taco Bell...ONE YEAR...I have beat my weakness!!! I don't need that junk! NONE OF IT! I still eat what I want, don't get me wrong, life is too short to deprive yourself of good food...I just make it myself now, and if I DO go out to eat, I get the healthiest option available! I'm just smart about things now...things that never really concerned me before! I feel good...all over...everything is shifting mentally to a very positive plane!
Incredible what can happen in a year! In only 365 days I have gone from a near size 28 to a near size 18, from 285 pounds to about 225 pounds, from an embarrassed and low self esteemed individual to a confident buoyant young woman! What a difference a year has made! I. FEEL. GRRREAT! I do, even though I know I have a long way to go still...I know I"m going to get there, I know I can do it...I can do ANYTHING I put my mind too, anyone can! You want something? Then go get it! You want to be something? Then go be it! You have one life, one run at this in your current vessel, just one...what are you doing with it? Are you living it up to the best of your ability or are you letting yourself waste away? Are you taking care of yourself or abusing your very being? Whatever it is you want to do, want do be, where ever you want to go in life...go grab that dream and make it real. Start setting your goals, start small...but start reaching for them. Don't just sit back and let life pass you by, don't just sit there wasting away your days watching TV, don't go out every day with your bad attitude, look inside yourself and change your mindset. Know that you not only are what you eat...most importantly you are what you THINK and what you SAY. Change your mindset. Change your habits. YOU CAN DO IT. Find the good in yourself, in your surroundings, in other people. Everyday you should strive to be just a little bit better. Where are your dreams? Where are your desires and goals? Where did you leave them? It's never to late to pick them back up...your not getting any younger friends...be that person you always wanted to be! And I vow, if your ever in need of a good word, an encouraging boost, anything, I"m here for you...we all need to lift each other up, to pat each other on the back, to pick one another up when one of us gets down. Love yourself, love your neighbors, love your body, your earth, love your spiritual self, really look inside and fall in love with the person you are...and if you are looking in and find in your search for the love within something in you that you don't like...simply get rid of it! LIke cutting the bad spot out of an apple...just get rid of it! YOU CAN DO IT. I know you can!
I can't wait to see what the next 365 days are going to bring for me! I"m not stopping, I'm in it for the long run, I'm busting out of my fat shell and blooming into the person God intended me to be! One individual, one person, just little ol me, making this much of a difference! And you know what?! This spark that I have...it's spreading! Your spark will too! I have a good handful of wonderful friends that come to Zumba with me now, and it's been even more rewarding watching THEM get in shape and feel good, to see that lost confidence shine in their faces, my heart burns with a desire that it never felt before. What an amazing infection to spread around...the infection of positivity, healing and well being. Imagine how this will trickle down the pipes, as their spark spreads to those they know and so on and so on! Get your spark on and spread it around!!! Good times, good times!
This little light of mine, I'm ganna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shiiiiine! Shine on people, have a beautiful day, and thinks for reading my blurp about my successful year in my healthy adventure!
All you need is love,