Tuesday, June 01, 2010
I find the struggling is my middle name these days. I have set some loft goals for myself, I have a full schedule, and up until yesterday I had no motivation and was letting myself feel overwhelmed. The thing with being overwhelmed that is my biggest problem is that I sort of panic, doubt myself, and then wallow in the feeling blaming my full plate (metaphorically speaking) for my failure and lack of motivation. I am finally taking strides to overcome this feeling of being overwhelmed, the feelings of failure I have, and the weight that weighs on me both literally and figuratively. No more can I blame being overwhelmed. No more can I wait for the actions to motivate and call to me. No more can I live like this and complain all the while not taking any real actions to change.
I have always had the opinion that if you do not vote you can't complain about the results, or if you do not help than you can't complain about the outcome. Well, I have not been helping myself truly and so I have no right to complain about this weight. If anything, I am the one who put this weight in office. Well no more! I am taking my life into my own hands, I am taking control and I am admitting that the only one I have to blame for the trial ahead of me is myself.
I have set up a few streaks for myself which I will start reporting weekly. I will be in here blogging once a week. The goal is to take baby steps, not let the feeling of being overwhelmed drag me down, and just make healthier choices. This is going to be a hard and long journey, but it is worth it and not only will I be bettering myself physically, but emotionally and intellectually too.
It's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life for me...