i will no longer turn my back on myself
Monday, May 31, 2010
well i never have been very good at writing in a diary or blog i just am not a writer. but here i go.
i was looking in the mirror today. and realized that i was looking in a mirror. lol
let me explain. after i had my daughter i was preoccupied with all the first time mommy stuff and what was best for her. well sometime in their i lost sight of me and when i finally took time to look at myself in the mirror i didn't like what i saw so i turned my back and never looked back. that was until i took another good look in march and decided i could no longer avoid myself any longer.
so i loaded my daughter into the stroller (that has been poorly treated over the last three years) and took a walk. started watching what i ate(bye bye coca cola) and made a doctors appointment for MYSELF for the first time in three years.
which brings me to today,exactly 2 months later, actually looking in a mirror without wanting to turn my back. i was actually liking the changes i saw in myself. it brought tears to my eyes and i decided right then and there that I WILL NO LONGER TURN MY BACK ON MYSELF.