Sunday, May 30, 2010
I apologize that I have been away for a while. I have taken some time off work to get my head together. Since the episode, my creativity has broken open like a dam. I am working on my art daily, and sometimes I finish more than one piece in a day. I showed my work to some people, and have been told I am very talented. It excites me to work on things. I can't begin to explain how happy it makes me feel.
I can say now that I am a Mixed Media Artist. It's so much fun, so satisfying, so deeply exploratory.
Things are leveling out with Tom. He still sees and talks to "that girl" but I am developing my own self esteem and my own life, separately. He works with her, so he has to speak to her. So far, he appears to be controlling himself. In the end, I can't control what he does or does not do.
I have looked at apartments and have considered leaving, but because of my school plans which include quitting work for one year to enter the interpreter preparation program full time for a year... I can't leave at this time.
I have continued to lose weight. It's called "the stress diet." No actually, it's the "I'm so obsessed with working on my art that eating is a total inconvenience" diet. Unfortunately, I havent' worked out much, either, but I'm at 204 now and soooooo close to reaching ONE-derland. I am feeling more together now than I have in a while, and believe all this will be coming together soon.
Thank you all for being my friends. Big hugs to my girls!!!