Trying to get my spark back.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Since about the third week in January I've been in a deep depression. Part of me (about 25%) is really trying to dig out, part of me (another 25%) is patiently hopeful & waiting for it to pass, and the rest of me is for crawling into a hole and pulling it in after me.
I'd like to say that Sparkpeople is helping my efforts to dig out, but that would be a lie. Right off the bat, I always spin the lowest number on the Spark Wheel..confirmation that I'm a loser. Then, everyone is so positive and upbeat...there's no place for gloomy gus me in that crowd. Sigh.
On the other hand, I do keep coming back. I do try a few minutes of a workout, I read a few articles, I huddle with a couple of teams. It may feel boring and pointless, but maybe there's still a bit of a Spark within me that can be nurtured and brought back to brightness. Or maybe I'm just stubborn.