Monday, May 24, 2010
This is not the 1st year anniversary blog I thought I would be writing; in fact I almost forgot it was my 1st year anniversary. I only just finished eating dinner a little after 9 PM and why is that?
Don’t get me wrong I love my new job but I need to get “my act” together. I love my new job, everyone is so nice, it is a fun office but I can’t keep working every night till 7:30 to 8 PM every night. I need to get my butt out there no later than 6 PM. I have been so tired from the hours I have been keeping because I do go to the gym every morning before work, which is why I work till 6 PM. I am able to work flex hours so I can start an hour later to give me time to go home, shower, and dress and that is a big plus for me.
Leave no Sparker behind has become my way of thinking here on Spark people but I am afraid I am guilty of leaving myself behind. I think I just squeaked by on Friday with just Sparking long enough to do my minimal Spark Tasks for the day that Spark People sets up for us each day to do this or read that. Saturday and Sunday I did no more than log in, track my food and fitness minutes. It is so unlike me. I have been so tired, no exaggeration I have been in bed fast asleep by 9 PM. That is not good.
My biggest fear is that I will be doing a repeat of what I did last year. I screwed around for the 1st three weeks before actually started Sparking. I gained 3 pounds to boot during that time. I was thrilled with the weight I lost last year but I have lost zippo since then. I underwent so major personal issues including identity theft that really stressed me out. I had bouts of kidney stones as a result of the stress and then I came down with shingles. The shingles brought steroids, which I have been on and off since then. Tried talking my Doctor about letting me just take the least amount of days but since the end of March I have been on them and have to stay on them till the end of June. It will be back to the Doctor for re-evaluation to see if she will take me off the steroids. I stepped on the scale back in January and saw a 2-pound gain, after that I refused to step on the scale till I go off the steroids. I know I have gained but I don’t want to know how much or I know I will go off the deep end and then go on a huge binge.
I have been eating right and exercising right but I am not stepping on that scale. The old Yvonne would have just given into the steroids and “pigged out” until the steroids were over. I know me and I know that it is best I stay off the scale. My Spark Page says I am a work in process and I will admit I am not strong enough to jump on that scale, you can call me chicken and you would be right.
Despite my not jumping on the scale right now I have come far and I have learned a lot from the articles on Spark People and from its members. I am thrilled with what I have accomplished but I have oh so more to do before I am done. I try to give back what Spark People has given to me in the blogs I post. I try to share my knowledge and my mission is to get people to try new things or ways of eating foods. I think it is important we can incorporate yummy dishes in our food plans so we don't feel deprived while eating healthy. I try to write a Vegetable, bean, or grain of the week to do just that. I believe we should never stop learning.
I read an article in Spark People two weeks ago and it kind of sums up my philosophy here on Spark People. “A healthy lifestyle is a process-more of a journey than a destination. You can always learn more about nutrition, fitness, and even yourself that can help you be just a little bit better tomorrow.” In my blogs I try to do just that.