Monday, May 24, 2010
So much for daily blogging! I never have been much of a journal writer.
Truthfully, my partner's surgery week went by in a blur of activity. Everything has gone as well as can be hoped for: the surgery was a success, the medical professionals involved were all competent and kind, she came home one day early, her energy is good and recovery is going well.
As the primary support for someone recovering from major surgery, I tried to anticipate, but have been surprised anyway, by all of the little details that go into helping someone through that process. I realize that my biggest challenge is not to take care of the logistics, but to stay present and not totally "numb out." My tendency is definitely to go far away emotionally, but I feel proud of the steps I'm taking to not use this old coping mechanism.
I have stayed active and made it to a yoga class and 3 dance classes last week, which is one of the best things I can do to feel like me. I also took a bath on Friday and listened to a meditation tape, which helped.
Food-wise, I stuck to juicing plan. I had fun with all the possibilities of juicing and smoothie making. I also made some awesome bran muffins using the carrot pulp from the juicer.
Some challenges of juice feasting:
Though juicing takes it "back to the basics," it feels labor intensive (though it probably doesn't take longer than cooking a meal). Also, no matter how much juice I drank, I did reduce my calorie range from 1800-2200 to 1200-1400 and the result of a juice feast is that your system is "clean" - both of those things means that I got hungry at certain points in the day. The hunger and the intentionality that it takes to juice feast gave me feelings that resonated uncomfortably like my teenage dieting years, when I was obsessed with losing weight.
Some benefits of juice feasting:
I didn't have to decide what I was going to eat during such a stressful week. I got a lot of comfort knowing that I was absorbing massive amounts of vitamins and minerals. I felt proud that I wasn't compulsively eating my way through the emotional ups and downs. I had fun experimenting with the juices.
I also weighed myself this morning and I lost 6.5 lbs since last Monday. I have been taking my weight loss journey very slowly (average 12 lbs/year for 7 years). I was a little scared by the big loss, but truth to be told I am READY to reach my goal, which is now only 8 pounds away. If juicing can help me get there soon, so that I can settle into maintaining a healthy weight for the rest of my life, bring it on!