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I buried a box

Sunday, May 23, 2010

This thing of a healthy lifestyle reaches farther than just losing the additional person that I've been packing around all these years.

There is also the mental baggage that I've been packing around. The years of growing up and being painfully shy in school. The mistakes that I thought that only *I* experienced. The first "love" that wasn't love at all, but lust and ended badly and affected me for many years. All my "stupid" mistakes that I've made over the years. The rejections from different people for different things.

I decided to do something about it. I thought "OK Ed, you have finally made the decision to improve yourself and it's time to take it to another level."

So I "bought" a mental box and started extracting all this baggage that I've been packing around. I went thought the closet - through the attic - and dug in the basement. I stuffed all this junk into that box and headed out into the woods.

While there, I "dug" a hole. A deep one, not a shallow one. I threw that box in and covered it up, enjoying each shovel of "dirt" that put it where it needed to be. When I was done I scattered branches over it and walked away.

My history, my experience, my past help form the ME that I am today. There is only one of me in this world and will never be another one just like me ever again. I am losing my weight, and now I feel lighter because I dumped the mental baggage as well. I don't know where it's buried and I don't care anymore. I'm NOT going to go back and dig it up again. If I head towards a shovel, I'll grab a dog leash instead and go for a walk.

We need to remember just how special each and every one of us is. Don't be controlled by things in the past. You can't change them no matter what they may be. Life has so much to offer and it's good to look forward to all those things that you are experiencing now and in the future.

Like I have said before - this road isn't easy or simple. That's fine by me because I don't want to get boring! I WANT a challenge! I enjoy my "home base" but I'm up for change as well. I know that it's not going to be easy, however I have the strength and conviction within myself and we ALL have that power.

Bury the past and all those negative thoughts. Go out in this life and make it happen. You can do this!

Onwards...
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  • v JAY75REY
    Nice. Better to remember the good things than re-hash the old awful ones. I've got a ton of them, too, and I think I'll pack them up and shoot them out to outer space on a rocket.
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    2224 days ago
  • v BRENDY_28
    thank you for sharing your thoughts. this is beautifully written :)
    2225 days ago
  • v TURTLETRAVELER
    I built up walls and am trying now to take them down and look at each brick of shame in the face and accept it and move on. For me it will be a much longer process but I need to accept me for my past and present before I can look forward to the future I want.
    2226 days ago
  • v -FEMALE-
    WOW!!! Amazing Amazing Amazing blog! Thanks for sharing!
    2226 days ago
  • v HAWAIILINDA
    Onwards!
    2226 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/23/2010 8:49:48 PM
  • v GRACEISENUF
    I'm going shopping for a box.
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    (great blog by the way)
    2226 days ago
  • v GAYLE-G-63
    I didn't bury a box, but I did apolgize to everyone I'd hurt and then forgave myself. I still cringe at some of the things I've done in my life, but it's getter better. I'm not nearly as critical with myself as I used to be.
    2226 days ago
  • v ANNIESADVENTURE
    Oho, you have given us something to think about again. Maybe we'll follow your example and fill our own box. Anyone else up to the shovel brigade?
    Annie
    2226 days ago
  • v CARRIEMT
    Good for you for burying the negativity. For me, sometimes it's an on-going process (I have to actively strive to do it).
    There are so many good things to look forward to, so many experiences we haven't had yet. I like your saying "Go out in this life and make it happen." because sometimes it's scary to go out but rewarding when you make it happen.
    2226 days ago
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