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I'm back

Saturday, May 22, 2010

been off of spark for months and months and months now but i think i'm ready to get back on. Lots have been happening since me "hiatus" and well sad to say no weightloss, more like weightgain *grumbles*

Happy to say i am cushing's clear as of january, never had cushing's but my mom does and her dr. wanted me to be tested for it. But right around that time i did start having eye problems, seeing lines over my field of vision, spots appeared from when i stood up after having been sitting down. Well turns out that i have pappilledema caused by too much spinal fluid that was created intercranial pressure and thus squashing my optic nerves. My last visit with my neural-opthromologist was kind of shocking. Was basically told that i need to lose weight or i'm going to go blind. And you would think that would motivate me to exercise, but no still got no motivation.

Ok part of the not wanting to exercise has to do with low self esteem, i belong to planet fitness and well am convinced that if i go there people are going to chase me out. That and i got nothing appropriate to wear to the gym, well nothing appropriate with pockets. I NEED pockets so i can carry my inhaler with me, ah the life of a non-allergy asthmatic. I was so blessed with exercise induced asthma, yeeeeeea me *rolls eyes*

sighs, so ya thats my story for now
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    Trust me as a PF member myself and starting off with 40 lbs. and feeling very vulnerable to what people will not be judged! It is a safe place and everyone feels the same way when you get started...just go do it and the more you go the easier it gets and you'll see everyday people just wanting to get healthy again! I see the same group of people each day and it's comforting to feel like you belong far as what to wear? I found most of my workout clothes at Wal-mart! You can do it! Good luck and glad you're back! emoticon
    2855 days ago
  • GRANDMA442
    I have this little bag I can wear around my neck with the inhaler. It is waterproof so I can even wear it swimming. I got it free with Sybicort points - I don't know where you can buy them but your pharmacist might know. Hope this helps! emoticon
    2856 days ago
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