Saturday, May 22, 2010
been off of spark for months and months and months now but i think i'm ready to get back on. Lots have been happening since me "hiatus" and well sad to say no weightloss, more like weightgain *grumbles*
Happy to say i am cushing's clear as of january, never had cushing's but my mom does and her dr. wanted me to be tested for it. But right around that time i did start having eye problems, seeing lines over my field of vision, spots appeared from when i stood up after having been sitting down. Well turns out that i have pappilledema caused by too much spinal fluid that was created intercranial pressure and thus squashing my optic nerves. My last visit with my neural-opthromologist was kind of shocking. Was basically told that i need to lose weight or i'm going to go blind. And you would think that would motivate me to exercise, but no still got no motivation.
Ok part of the not wanting to exercise has to do with low self esteem, i belong to planet fitness and well am convinced that if i go there people are going to chase me out. That and i got nothing appropriate to wear to the gym, well nothing appropriate with pockets. I NEED pockets so i can carry my inhaler with me, ah the life of a non-allergy asthmatic. I was so blessed with exercise induced asthma, yeeeeeea me *rolls eyes*
sighs, so ya thats my story for now