I went to a bachelorette party this weekend in San Luis Obispo, CA. A beautiful gorgeous town located on the central coast. This is the town where I attended college and moved away from rather recently. I love it and ABSOLUTELY miss it.
Anyway. This is a town where everyone is white, affluent, and in serious good health. While I lived there I would go to the beach and pretend that I was cool with myself and just chill but I'd always be thinking about how I looked. I never went to the beach with friends because I didn't want to be embarrassed.
Back to this weekend:
This party included a long day by the Madonna Inn pool. To prepare, I stopped eating sugar about 2 weeks beforehand to get a little flatter in the tummy and I bought a super cute swimsuit from Target. Most of the other attendees were fitness instructors and super hot and slim with enviable bodies. I wanted to be as prepared as possible.
I got there, put on my suit and enjoyed myself! I felt sexy and confident and: I DIDN'T THINK ABOUT MY TUMMY ROLLS!
Just look at those nice shoulders! (Yeah, I'm tootin' my own horn!)
Afterward we went to our hotel room at the infamous Madonna Inn (garishly kitsch but fun) and I put on shorts, heeled sandals, and a fun top. I don't think I even noticed what half of the girls were wearing because I didn't care - like, I wasn't comparing myself to them like I normally would have. I was just having a great time and: I DIDN'T THINK ABOUT MY TUMMY ROLLS! *
*(The enormous amounts of beverages being consumed most likely helped my confidence because I was just having a blast hanging out with a bunch of really nice women.)
Here's wacky picture before dinner:
NO TUMMY ROLL THOUGHTS THERE!
Here's one of me after the long night (this is the point at which I wanted nothing more than to sleep but I was forced by the other girls to stay awake for a pizza delivery and attempted to eat a slice but only got through 2 bites, dropped it on the hotel room floor, picked it up, put it in the bathroom on a plate, and fell asleep):
When I saw the pic above I did a double-take because it's definitely the first pic I've taken in years where I was surprised to see that I didn't look way bigger than I thought I looked in my mind. I think I look pretty slim in that one! TUMMY ROLLS, or thoughts of them, WHAT? - NONE HERE!!
Finally, the one pic that MADE ME THINK ABOUT MY TUMMY ROLLS (but only after seeing it, I love it otherwise because it's totally me - goofy to the max!):
I wish I could erase the roll but hey - I felt so happy and so confident. Had I attended that party a few months ago, I would've been stressed out about my appearance. Now, I just need to lose more before the wedding in June so that I feel even better!!