Monday, May 17, 2010
Well, I actually wanted to cry.
That was the human, the weak side if you will, that felt totally deflated. Situation hopeless. Who you kidding that you can lose this weight? All those negative thoughts persisted when the scale showed a 1.6 pound increase this week. I'm up, then down, now back up again. What's up with that? I'm eating almost 1,000 calories less a day than I used to eat. I admit, I am not exercising for hours, but I put in 30-50 minutes 4-5 days a week. Compared to my pre-Spark period, that is 30-50 minutes more than I was doing. Yes, before I was doing absolutely nothing. In my book, I should be dropping it like it's hot. Instead I weigh more!
Okay, the "Why Me" phase of this blog is over. I'm doing good, though not perfect. I'm committed and staying on track 85% of the time. I enjoy tracking food, though I am not a big fan of rigid exercising. Yet, I do it. So, though I'm not perfect, I'm pressing forward. This is a bump -- just like when you're traveling on a road and everything's going along fine. And every now and then, there's a bump, a traffic jam, construction. Something inevitably comes along that slows you down. But you always recover and continue on your way. I've absorbed this bump. This bleepin' glitch on my journey. It's history and I'm on the road again. Yeah, just like Willie Nelson.