Thursday, May 13, 2010
First of all let me say what a roller coaster of a day I have had! I started the day letting my homelife situation get me down. For the new dragons, long story short, Since last May when my mom was diagnosed with cancer, I have received absolutely no support from my husband. To the point that at one point when I was called to go back to my mom's side (she use to live in TN, I live in IN) that he said if I went I might as well file for a divorce. So today, I let myself dwell in the fact that there doesn't seem to be an end in sight for this situation. So I self sabotaged with food. I also, started out the day thinking that I would just do the TNT for my team and just be done streaking. Then later after I had done the TNT, I decided to do just 10 min. on the bike to keep my streak going. At 9 min. my body was still willing to go so I said ok 15 min. At 15, I just kept going. Got to 20 and said I might as well do 30. I want you to know that even after all the self pity I had today my body was willing to do the work. I amazed myself. I guess I can say that exercise IS part of my life now even if it is for a short time. So now that the pity party is over, I'm going to try to focus on the things I can control and not let thethings I can't control control me!!!