Wednesday, May 12, 2010
My diet story.
Have you heard of "skinny Asians"???
Well, I was never one growing up. Because I was an athlete back home, I was never the small frame typical Asian. When I was in middle school, I was the second largest kid in my class. But, this was because I had massive muscle comparison to typical Asian girls. However, when I came to the States to study, I started to eat a lot of junk food. I guess quitting sports didn't help much either. By the time I graduated from High school, I weighed between 160-165lbs. I came to America my sophomore 2nd semester and I weighed 140. Within 3 years, I've gained 25lbs.
In the state, people told me what's the big deal to weigh 160lbs? I don't know how many people have heard of "Asian Pressure"? More so the parental pressure?
When I visited home to see my parents, they told me that they were embarrassed. Constant nagging and hurtful words put me down. So I decided to go on a diet. And before Freshman year, I have went down to 128lbs. However, our Freshman 15 did not fail me...I have gained up to 150 by my Sophomore year. Again, the nagging began and the constant pressure from my parents were AWFUL! This time, I didn't go on a diet, and due to my ulcer, I have lost 20 lbs...now my end of Junior year, I have gained up to 140lbs again.
I want to stop this Yo-Yo! I want to maintain my goal rest of my life!
This is not just about losing weight. This is also a journey for me to release myself from the Asian pressure and look at myself positively! It's been hard for me to be put down, especially from the people I love and care--family. During my diet, I hope that I can appreciate more who I am!