Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Two days ago, I was, for no reason I can put my finger on, just NOT HUNGRY all day. I wasn't sick; I just wasn't hungry. I don't think I've ever in my life before that day had a day where I wasn't sick but also wasn't just hungry all day. I kept thinking to myself all day, "this is what thin people must feel like." It was wonderful and terrible at the same time. It was wonderful because I felt great. I wasn't constantly thinking about food, and when I ate, I ate small portions and was satisfied. It was terrible, though, because I knew that it wouldn't last. I knew that I would go right back to constant hunger, and I was right. I'm still sticking to my eating plan, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't hungry. The problem is that when I eat what I'm supposed to eat (even when I eat lots of veggies and fiber), I'm hungry again only a short time later. I wish there was a magic pill I could take to just make me not hungry. The last time I lost weight, I lost about 45lbs., and after being on a plateau for 4 months, I finally just gave up because I couldn't handle being hungry all day with no results. My biggest fear is that even if I lose all the weight I want to lose, I'm going to have to be hungry for the rest of my life to maintain it.