Monday, May 10, 2010
So, needless to say, I actually gained a few pounds before my senior Recital. Don't get me wrong, everyone still said I looked beautiful, but it would have been fantastic to fit into a dress at least one size smaller. I recently had my favorite pair of jeans rip, so I had to order new ones...yet again it would have been nice to order a size 8 instead of a 10.
I need people to help motivate me...My friends and family just say "Oh you look fine" or my ever favorite "You are NOT fat". These comments are NOT helpful. True, I don't want you to look at me say "Oh my God you are so HUGE" or "You Heffer" but still...something would be nice. Because when I hear that everyone thinks I look fine I completely believe it and then think I don't need to fix it.
I plan this summer to work out on my parents elliptical along with my EA sports active for the Wii. I think if just try to wake up a little bit earlier for work and work out, I'll be okay.
And then there's the other problem...WORK. Working at a Mall is one of the WORST things ever. Not only is it all greasy foods, but I also work with ONLY women who are constantly bringing in cookies, or having pizza parties or buying chick-fil-a for the store. It's hard when your manager says " what's for dinner" and we typically always get something greasy. The salad place in the mall just shut down so what's my option now? Yes they are putting a sushi place instead, but really how healthy is THAT? I guess I need to start taking my lunch to work...it's hard with the temptation ALL around me!!
I may not be the BEST in this picture, but this is my goal for right now. I feel like if I go to the extreme, it won't happen.