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Here I am at the beginning again


Sunday, May 09, 2010

Well life takes us all full circle. And mine seems to go in circles. I am addicted to sugar, as surely as anything. I am slowly trying to weed it out of my life. Maybe this time I will find success. then again, if I just concentrate on cutting back on it today and let tomorrow take care of itself, I may be more successful.

My choloestrol levels this year have been dangerously high. I had my medications upped and it brought about vertigo so it was cut back to the ential dosage. I am working with my trainer again and am really trying to put myself on a schedule with my meals. These are the things which I feel interfere with any successes I may have.

I really have a difficult time journaling about my feelings. I can state facts, crack jokes, and write about anger and about visual beauty, anything else eludes me. I know that I eat my feelings, but can't seem to break the cycle. No wonder my life goes in circles.
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DEBBIEDAY 5/13/2010 2:50PM

    6 pounds gone this week??? AWESOME my friend now JOURNAL a congratulations note to yourself and tell yourself how amazing you are!!!! emoticon

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TWINKS55 5/9/2010 9:53PM

    Hi Fermari!
Well, some of go the trial and error route! LOL!
What struck me most was when you said ". I know that I eat my feelings,". Finding a way to master these without eating them could make such success.Its frustrating when we keep that same pattern. Are there any other possible routes for you?
I do empathize. Stress is doing similar havoc with me right now.
Let's not give up, ok?

Love,
Dianne

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WARMSPRINGDAY 5/9/2010 9:33AM

    It's tough. Maybe try baby steps instead of an all or none approach? That has helped me. Best wishes! You can do this!

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JOYINLOSS 5/9/2010 8:30AM

    Fermari, I think all of us have been there. Some are successful and get it right the first time. Then there are the rest of us like you that are certainly a work in progress. The important thing is that you don't give up.

I don't know if it would work or not but since you like sugar, what if you made it your treat for the end of the day or as a reward for doing something you set out to do for the day. I have found if I have sugar in the morning, I want it during the day all day long.

I'm so glad you are back. I really did miss you.

Hugs,

Joy

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JFROGDIVA 5/9/2010 8:17AM

    Mary ~ This is the third time I am trying to write this.......it keeps disappearing!!!! LOL!!!!
Hugzz ~ Jae emoticon

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JFROGDIVA 5/9/2010 8:14AM

    Mary ~ I understand & can relate!! I have been here, but my head & heart weren't in it!!!! I am really trying this time!!!! It seems like when I try, things always interfere & sabotage me!!!! I am REALLY trying though!!!! I am SO GLAD that you are back!!!! I have missed you & your adventures!!!! LOL LOL!!!! Hang in htere.....you CAN do it!!!!
Hugzz ~ Jae emoticon

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KENDRA.PESCE 5/9/2010 4:11AM

    I know how you feel. I often feel the same. It's a vicious circle.

I'm hopeful each time about making progress only to find that I'm at the same place I was in.

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