Since my last blog, I have continued to gain weight. Ugh! I am not walking as much as I would like (knee pain), but am still exercising. With my tax refund, I bought a new hybrid bike. Easier and more enjoyable to ride. And I am storing it in the basement while I am work instead of parking it outside where someone will covet it and "borrow" it like my last hybrid bike.
I am trying to figure out what is different from last year than this year. A new job. More time at work. A longer commute. Result? More stress, less personal time. I can eat well and regularly during the day, but feel I need to eat in the evening to "enjoy" my downtime. I can eat a whole day's worth of calories after dinner! Not the way to lose weight.
In my last blog, I talked about visualization. I did not remain consistent with my efforts. But lately I have been thinking about it and also my personal self talk. I really believe that my thoughts affect my attitude. Duh! Then I ran across this:
"Be careful what you think, for your thoughts become your words. Be careful what you say, for your words become your actions. Be careful what you do, for your actions become habits. Your habits define your character. And your character chooses for your soul and your destiny....." Author unknown
and it reminded me of this:
For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them].
Have I been thinking thinking about the pure things, the lovely things, the kind things? Honestly, I do very well when thinking about other people. I give them the benefit of the doubt, assume any "bad" they do is not their usual behavior. I do NOT do this when I think about myself. As many people are, I am too hard on myself. I am an undisciplined person because I gained weight. I am an inconsistent person because I reverted to old habits. I should be able to just take care of it.
So what am I going to think about? I have reduced my BMI from 42.9% in 2006 to 35% today. I am fitter today then I was then. I had trouble walking 2 miles. Now I can walk more, bike alot more, and have more endurance. I am smaller now than I was when I last was this weight. My resting pulse is 10 beats less than before. These are significant accomplishments. Even with weight gain, I am more healthy than before.
So each day, I need to remember that I am able to make good choices. My evening downtime does not need to include overeating. I deserve time to myself to do what I want. I plan to work fewer hours and increase my personal time. It does not matter that I took the wrong path. I can find the right path and continue on. It does not matter how long it will take, just that I am on the path.
Here's to pure and careful thoughts.