Saturday, May 08, 2010
Things just aren't as they used to be. I don't feel the same; I feel stuck. It requires so much effort on my part, and is placing a terrible drain on my resources. Our relationship is starting to feel completely one-sided. I do all the work while JC gets all the reward. But am I ready??? Sometimes it's just easier to stay in a relationship that isn't working. Break ups are so hard!
No, I'm not talking about my marriage, silly goose. My husband is stuck with me and these kids until he dies! We ain't going nowhere. Instead, I'm talking about Jessica, my Jenny Craig consultant. I started the program in January. Jessica has been there for me every step of the way and I've lost about 20 pounds (yay me!). For that, I am soooo thankful. But things have changed.
My scale hasn't moved in several weeks. I've been eating the food and exercising, but I've reached a plateau. And I'm still about 20 pounds from my goal!!! The conservative girl in me says I should just stick with it until I reach my goal. Work out harder and more often. Skip the afternoon and evening snacks.
But the wild, liberal girl in me wants to stop wasting my precious money on something that isn't working anymore. After all, I know what to do. I know about how many calories it takes. That $125 per week can be spent on more important things like electricity or car insurance!
Wild girl has gotten me in trouble many times before, though. This ain't my first rodeo, ya know. I've done the JC program off and on since my first miscarriage. Each time, I'd lose about 20 pounds, stall, quit, and then gain all the weight back. I know, I know, I know... Past experience should tell me that I'm not ready. But what if this time is different?
Uuuggghhh!!! Decisions, decisions... What would you do?