Sunday, May 02, 2010
I saw this quote on Aprillscott's spark page:
People can be divided into three groups: Those who make things happen, those who watch things happen, and those who wonder what happened! (Author Unknown)
Unfortunately, I recognize more of myself in the latter two than in the first, those who make things happen. Since my husband died, I seem to be in some kind of identity crisis. Turning 50 later this year will be part of it, I'm sure, but the catalyst is my husband's passing. He was a strong, passionate man who left his mark on me, my life, our home and our family. It was a good mark, but I often made the decision to do or not do things with him in mind. Now I am alone and it's all up to me. It's going to take me a while to get used to this, I think.
I will need to move from seeing my life pass by to havng the idea that I made things happen and have decided to make that my goal for the rest of this year. Deal with my husband's passing, which has left a big hole inside me, and get a grip on my own life.