Friday, April 30, 2010
Yep still hanging on but just by my finger nails. Been very busy lately and I am just finding it hard to make exercise a priority. I was just praying to maintain my weight this month with all of the up and sown with the scale and was pleasantly surprised with a small loss of 1.6 lbs. I will celebrate it but with a tinge of cynicism for I didn't work for it necessarily. Maybe cynicism isn't the right word...Anyhow, I am lagging in the goals we have set forth for ourselves this year. I started a new walk/run program and and still feeling like it is a step backwards because I am now not running nonstop. Logically I know that it may keep me running for a longer period of my life but it makes me less motivated to sign up for a 5k. I am not sure what the mental block is. The program also comes with a food plan that I am resisting with the strength of a two year old, lol. Not sure why I wanted to pay(a small fee) for a program I am not working or giving a real try. Why do I struggle with lifestyle changes when I know that they must be a life change for it to be affective over the long term? I guess if I had the answer to that I would not be having this struggle! Lord help me to help myself!!