Thursday, April 29, 2010
MMM Another day-another dollar spent! renos and all!
Well why is it not all roses and sweet peaches?
I am trying hard but not hard enough. I went over my caloric intake 3 days this week. But you have to understand I have a good reason-oh yes we all have good reasons NOT to do what needs to be done but I put this down to stress. You know while we know a lot about what happens when we are stressed-many of us turn to food for comfort-there is not enough distractions, (for lack of a better word) that can turn our need for comfort food around. Now please understand I have seen a lot of comments about stress and overeating and how to shake up the need for food but I don't buy it!
I am waiting for the results of a CT scan-had a major crash on my bicycle and fell heavily on my ribs-now this does not have to be serious but I can't exercise because I get chest pain, back pain which is unreal.
But I need to exercise-I swim 2 km twice a week and water aerobics at least 3 times a week and I live for those endorphins-I am so happy and full of energy when I finish my work-outs.
You know that feeling when you just want to stay in bed instead of swimming in a wet pool-but then this little voice comes into the brain and says in a quiet but irritating voice "Yes BUT you will feel awesome when you finish" and I drag myself out of my warm duvet and head for the coffee and wait until my coffee does what it's supposed to do (wake me up), read the paper for the latest scandals to hit government leaders or members of their party or the more enticing Goldman- Saks rip-off of thousands of retirement funds of hard-working Americans while putting money in GS own pockets! An American Tragedy- oops the time is running short-gotta change-put on the bathing suit pull on my training pants, grab a jacket-where are the keys today? Ride ride the Island Highway get to the Commonwealth Pool and hit the change room-Grrr the closer I get to the water-I am mean and ugly and my fat is outstandingly- moving up and down-that stomach curled on itself- and I flip-flop my feet to the edge of the pool-
I plunge into the pool with a scowl that burns out by the end of the work-out.
and then the endorphins are humming singing sweet songs-smiling at everyone and smiling "hi" to everyone coming in for their work-out, walk into the change room and chat with the women there-and get into the car-put the fan on high as the heat of the lengths are keeping me hot to the touch. And then home for some more restful coffee and clean-up!
So while I wait for the Ct scan results- I really see that life is not all roses and peaches- and despite WANTING something badly (to be exercising and posting my results)- too bad so sad-I have to wait- whether I like it or not-
But today as a result of reviewing my weekly caloric intake results-I am going to make some changes-I am not going to change the quality of the food I eat-but I am going to work my hardest to maintain my portion control button. I will post the food first -then see if I can eat the food and whether it is within my range.
You know learning this whole healthy lifestyle change is harder than I thought. I think you have to make room for life and all its' challenges-good or bad- and how that can affect you emotionally and psychologically and how this impacts your healthy food behavior.
I only have to worry about TODAY! I can only make this day better. If I can string together a week -that is impressive at this stage.
I know what I need to do. I do. I just got to learn not to pick up too much food when I worry and things are not going the way I want them to do.
I can-you can-we all can do this! Have a super day and I hope its' filled with roses and sweet peaches.