Thursday, April 29, 2010
I had this day dream that in a couple of months I won't need to track my nutrition because I will have made a habit of smaller portions sizes, and good food choices. I will have an awareness of what goes into my body and its nutrient value.
I have been a little bummed on the scale, it keeps moving back and forth between 150 and 153. It has been doing this for the last couple of weeks. I have been working out really hard but recently mellowed my schedule as to not over train. And while I make really sensible food choices, I have definitely not been restrictive on my diet, I have just lessened some of my trigger foods (cream and sugar in coffee, and cheddar cheese), but they are still in my diet. I keep trying to think about what am I doing this for?
I know what this transformation is doing to me. I feel great, mostly confident, beautiful, clear-headed, motivated, strong. I may not be dropping below 150, but is that necessary for me to gain the health I am looking for? I don't think so. I think I am doing this to feel great, and I feel great. Goal setting is what keeps looking ahead, but I am not doing this to reach my goals. I am doing this because I want a better life, every day. I want to fill my lungs up with fresh air! I want to feel strong when I run (I can't believe I am running!), when I swim and when I bike. I love the new me.