Wednesday, April 28, 2010
In my "previous life" I was always negative. I can't or I will never be able to was a part of my daily mantra. It was a wonderful place to hide; after all, how could it be my fault if I had no control over it?
Fact is, I had control. Rather than actually try, I did what is known as "projecting"; planning the results negatively. I was really good at projecting.
Sad thing is, I continued to be overweight, out of shape and heading towards disaster. I lived in a co-dependent choke hold, focusing on others issues and not on my own (because I believed I couldn't fix my own issues).
How wrong I was! When I finally let go the rush was exhilarating! I could do this! I WAS doing this! ALL FOR ME! Sure, at first it was frustrating. I had to make major changes in my life. I had to pay attention to what I was eating. Physical exercise had to be more than just the walk from the car to my office.
So now I am hearing those excuses from others: "I will never be able to eat healthy, so I'm going to DIET my way", "obesity runs in my family, so there's no point in trying", etc.
Although I do my best to point them in the right direction, I know it is a path they must decide to take on their own. It took me 48 years to accept something that I never believed I could do...and if I can do this, what else is out there for me?!